Its 10:30pm and I’m about to hit the sack for the night – which is early for me. Normally I’m in bed no sooner than 12am – often after 1am. I think my sleeping habits are a roadblock to my weight loss efforts, but I just haven’t been able to change them – yet.
Yesterday I ran a 10k – the fastest I’ve ever run – faster than even my midnight madness run where I set two new PRs. I didn’t break the one mile PR (currently at 9:17) but I’m sure I was faster on my 5k than I currently have recorded. I don’t have the exact time because I wasn’t looking at my phone when I hit 5k. I was 22 seconds faster on the first 3 miles of that 10k than I was on the 3 miles of the Midnight Madness run – 22 seconds faster than the run that made me tweet “Omg!!! I did it…”
Today I ran 5 miles with my wife and bro-in-law. It was a slow run but my legs were so sore from the 10k that I was very glad to have the slower pace. I also read a great article about pace setters that was inspirational despite making me feel like I have no idea yet how running is supposed to look and feel.
I also signed up for the Rock-N-Roll 1/2 Marathon next Sunday. I’m running in both the 2-person relay (with my wife) and the 1/2 Marathon. Mostly I didn’t want to run in the marathon and not cross the finish line (I’m the first leg of the relay) – but also because my Bro-In-Law is running in the 1/2 and I don’t want him to get one in before me… 🙂
Having said all of that – I stopped to write this blog post before I went to bed because I feel discouraged. No – not regarding running… in fact, I have never felt better about running. I’m discouraged about work. I don’t know if that has any value for your weight loss journey, certainly not enough that I should have stayed up an additional 15 mins to type this out – but I am discouraged about my job.
My job is going well – but I feel like I’m running out of steam. I have several proverbial balls in the air and I’m certain that I’ve already dropped one and just don’t know it yet. What does that have to do with weight loss? I think the stress is an issue for me. I keep dreaming of a day when I don’t have the constant strain – that ominous weight on my shoulders that I’ve already missed something important and its going to come crashing down on me.
I’m either neglecting work or church or family or school or this blog… I think that dream of freedom from guilt is just that – a dream that will never be realized. Does that have anything to do with my eating habits? My sleep patterns? My workout routines?
I don’t know… I just don’t know…