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My old friends need a divorce! By Albert Tubbs

Enjoy every bite of food. Focus while you eat and eliminate distractions. Including but not limited to no eating food while watching television. These are ideas that McKenna has laid out in his book.

The first few days I followed this to the letter. Then slowly began watching TV while eating, think “no problem”.

Sadly, I have noticed that I can’t stop eating when I am full and be in front of the TV. Furthermore, I have a strong distain for that fact that I have discovered I enjoy the act of eating.

It has become excruciatingly clear that I must divorce these two activities from each other if I am to be successful at following the principles laid in “I can make you thin”.

The strange thing that has happened is that I am experiencing the five stages of grief after this discovery and I’m not quite at acceptance yet. Seriously, this revelation has not been one of enlightenment but of grief, sorry and depression.

I now know for the first time in my life when I am really full – good. That food and TV can’t be united in matrimony – good.

I’M NOT HAPPY ABOUT KNOWING THIS!

I feel like a child whose parents are saying “we only want what’s best for the kids” but are still making live in a broken home, deserted.

I’m so offended, that now I’ve fallen of the wagon and ran away for the last few days.

Oh crap! I thought I was near stage five but it seems I have digressed back to anger, which of course is only stage three.

Fell off the wagon and landed on success: By Albert Tubbs

The bad news is I had a really bad food night.

The good news is I realized it and it wasn’t as bad as it could have been.

The morning and afternoon was fine but late afternoon I received some bad news. Not like anybody died news, but still upsetting.

In the book “I can make you thin” the author presents a hunger scale. It is as follows:

  1. Physically faint
  2. Ravenous
  3. Fairly hungry
  4. Slightly hungry
  5. Neutral
  6. Pleasantly satisfied
  7. Full
  8. Stuffed
  9. Bloated
  10. Nauseous

The idea is to eat when you are a 3 or 4 and not eat past an 8. This makes the overall goal to live in the 5-6 range.

After dinner I allowed myself to emotional eat. On previous days I used a calming technique that is shared in Mckenna’s book. Today, for some reason I didn’t use it. I didn’t even think of the method from the book.

Until halfway through my eating and then I used the calming method and stopped eating.

Tonight’s emotional eating was different. I felt my body being full. I knew my body didn’t need what I was eating, that this was pure emotional eating and I did it anyway. In the past I really believed I “needed” it.

This is a major success story for me. You may be thinking “How is emotional eating a success?”

You see fat people believe they are fat because they are physically hungrier than skinny people. We blame genetics and need. We insist that we are hungry and that skinny just don’t understand and they don’t.

Yet, I heard it and I felt it, that message from the body that I was full. I ignored but I heard it. Fat people don’t hear that or feel that until they are a 9 or 10 on the scale. Wither how we were raised or what we have done or a million other reasons we don’t hear it.

I heard it and if I start listening I really believe I can become one of those skinny people who don’t understand. That’s success!

This “success” is also a part of the program. The book even states I may have times I get away from the ideal I have now chosen for myself. I did fail my new chosen relationship with food tonight but I still won.

I will learn from it and stay with program. I plan to re-read the book and reinforce the calming and craving techniques because when I needed them I didn’t even think to use them.

As I write this post I am a strong 9 on the hunger scale and I upset with myself. Yet, I am high on believing that my body is in love with me, enough to talk to me.

Eat a Low Calorie Diet to Gain Weight! By Albert Tubbs

Ever eat food you hated because it was low cal and still not keep weight off? I use to all the time.

The program with all those programs for me was twofold:

  1. White-knuckle all the time.
  2. Coming off the program.

The white-knuckle was a zone that I would enter into in order to follow the diet program. Eat this and don’t eat that. I could be in this zone for long periods of time but always knowing I could not live in this zone for the rest of my life.

This always led to the problem of coming off the program and eventual weight gain, AGAIN.

Paul McKenna has changed my total perspective of food. Okay, maybe it is more like changing it not changed.

I still have trouble looking at all the food on my plate and saying “I’m full, leave it”.  That’s not my biggest problem though. I have noticed that TV watching and over eating went hand and for me and that has been hard to break.

Who knew you could say no to so much food by just asking yourself “am I full”?

Today I did eat more but I don’t believe it was in a rage or crazy craving. I do have to vigorously fight one urge, weighing myself. I’ll explain more about this one tomorrow.

Breakfast:

Cooked 2 eggs, 1 potato, ½  red onion, and ¾ a red pepper. Ate all the veggies nut a little egg and ¼ of the potato.

Lunch:

Fiber bar and yogurt. Ate it all.

Dinner:

Salad & pudding. Didn’t eat all the salad. Later had 2 spoonfuls of peanuts with some chocolate chips and then 3 slices of ham (for the record I don’t think I ate any of this on a binge or emotional craving).