Tonight’s Treadmill Torture

Dale and I are trying to change the way we live.  We are not dieting or exercising; we are in the process of making a new lifestyle together.   After years of bad habits and bad excuses; its not always easy.  But I want to show my children a better way.


A week ago I ran my first ½ marathon and the next day began craziness!  The last 6 days has been filled with the whole family having fevers, horrible coughs, never ending whinnying and feeling like we’ve been hit by a MAC truck.  I’m guessing we all have a bad case of the flu with maybe a side of bronchitis.  But I’m just a mom not a doctor. J  In any case, my husband was away for the first several days of it, so I took care of three little sick ones by my self for 3 days.


Less then 24 hours before the flu hit my house, I was asked to do a huge Scentsy event this same weekend.  So even with my fever, I did all the packing and prepping that it takes.  Let me say, its not easy to label papers straight when your head is spinning.  So for the next 3 days, I am up before 7 am.  If you know me, this is huge for me.  I am not a morning person.  I prefer to stay up at night and sleep in.  I’ve always wished I was a morning person and wished that I could have a normal sleep pattern but this topic is for different blog post.  Lets just say that 7am normally is a huge feat by itself with out adding the other things with it.  And after getting up, I worked and worked hard at a Bluegrass Festival on my feet all day; not getting to bed till midnight and doing it all again the next day.


Why am I mentioning all of this when the post says its about treadmill torture?  Cause the girl 6 months ago would have enjoyed all the fair flavors of her choice and not thought once about a work out.


Instead of an Elephant Ear, I packed a lunch box of Kashi crackers, berries and oranges to have for snacks.  I also brought water with me.  I let myself pick one place for lunch at the fair though.


Now I made some great choices but I know this is a work in progress.  On the last night, Dale and I went to Golden Corral for dinner.   I made a great salad and then filled my plate with lots of green veggies I love; broccoli, cabbage, zucchini, green beans.  I felt great.


I went back to the buffet and got a roll, a brownie, some peach cobbler and some bread pudding.  Don’t worry I don’t eat all that.  I ate the roll but I only had one very small bite of each the desserts.  And it didn’t take long.  Just 3 bites and I looked up at Dale and said, “Remember how I said I felt with the first place?” “Ya” “Well, now I feel miserable and gross!”


I had thought several times throughout the day that I needed a run.  Now after dinner, I felt miserable but knew what had to be done.  I start to dread it and try to talk my self out of it.

So after an hour drive, kids are to be taken care of and Dale is going back out.  I had a few choices here.  I could get the sleep that I so really want.  I could veg out and watch some tv.  But it plagues my mind that since the ½ marathon I’ve only had one 3 mile walk.  So almost in auto mode, I find that I’m grabbing work out clothes and my running shoes.


Now, I just ate, on my feet all day, kids driving me crazy, been sick for days, I’m so tired…. Ya this run is torture.  The run, probably one of the toughest in a long time but yet I cant explain it.  It feels soooooo good!  5 miles later; I’m pretty proud of me.  I like where I’m headed.  I like this lifestyle much better.

PF Chang 1/2 Marathon 2014

I cant believe it!  I really did it!  I finished my first marathon.


Over for years ago, Dale had to drag me out of the house for a 5k.  I remember getting back and sitting in the recliner thinking there’s no way I’m going to live.  He had to bring me water and I didn’t move for a very long time.  He mentioned that night in September that he wanted to start to run.  He talked of races and I thought he was just crazy.


For the next several months, I learned a lot about myself and began my running journey.  I could see it how it was changing our lives and started making goals.  The first was to do the Coast to Coast Disney Challenge.  I wasn’t sure when or how about that one.  Dale wanted to do a marathon with my brother in the summer so we began to train for it.  I made it my goal to do the ½.


In March of 2010, I had a bad injury that would take me from running for over 3 years.  I was unable to meet that goal of doing the ½.  It was a huge disappointment.  I sat with the kids in the hotel room as my husband, brother and sister in law all ran the event; thinking about my injury and wishing I was running.


I’ve had to start slow.  I have had a long ways to come.  But Sunday I finally completed my first ½ marathon.  My goal was to do it in 3 hours and 30 minutes; 15 minute miles.  My official time is 3 hours 17 minutes and 30 seconds.  Is it an amazing time? No. But its my best time ever.


MILE 1  I had planned to walk the first mile so that I don’t go too fast but Dale had put my time as something phenomenal cause I was in the first corral.  I thought it would be rude to run.  I did get in the way back so they didn’t run over me.  The first mile felt so good.  I normally have shoulder pain during my first few miles but I felt great.  Like I was being pushed while running on a trampoline.  I really liked the band who had a cool double decker bus and was on stilts.  I completed mile one in 12:40min/mile


MILE 2  I knew I needed to slow down a bit.  I tried to force myself to go slower.  I didn’t want to tucker out too quick.  The next mile seemed to go very fast though.  I completed mile two in 13:10min/mile


MILE 3  I decided to run what felt comfortable and stop trying to slow down.  In my head, I was thinking later it might come in handy that I’m a head of my time goal.  I completed mile three feeling great at 13:00min/mile


MILE 4  I slowed down for my first scheduled walk, water and GU break.  During training I had found a GU helpful at ever 4 miles so that was the plan today.  I completed mile four at 14:24min/mile


MILE 5  Feeling great and wondering how Dale is doing.  I completed mile five at 13:47min/mile


MILE 6  I’m feeling warmer and really wishing for some water but not only no water at this mile; the time clock for the race isn’t working.  I’m really thankful for the early birthday gift from Dale, my new Garmin Forerunner 220 in a pretty white and purple.  My legs are feeling a lil heavy, wonder if I’m going a little up hill.  I completed mile six at 15:36min/mile


MILE 7 Poured some water on my face, arms, back and accidentally drenched the front of my shirt.  I worried bout phone getting wet but feeling better.  I drank some too of course.  After some water I’m feeling a lot better.  I completed mile seven at 14:03min/mile


MILE 8 OH NO!  No water at my scheduled water and GU break.  I keep jogging along.  I’m really hungry now.  A little ½ way thru mile 8, there’s a water at the beginning of an in and out.  Get my GU down with some and on my way.  I’m jogging but this is a straight shot up a mountain.  I decided I might as well walk the steep path since it would take less effort.  I completed mile eight at 16:33min/mile


MILE 9  Feeling the GU and water hit and going down the mountain now…feeling soooo good!  Nice breeze right here too!  I completed mile nine at 14:49min/mile


MILE 10  Another little hill and just jogging nicely along at my normal pace.  I completed mile ten at 15:10min/mile


MILE 11  I noticed I’m really ahead of schedule and wonder if I pick it up if I could have this done in 3 hours!!  I completed mile eleven at 13:59min/mile


MILE 12  I realize that I don’t want to do it in 3 hours. If I do I’d have to rethink my up coming goals.  I slow down but now I’m feeling starved!!  I really should be taking my last GU but no water at this mile.  I start to walk because I’m very lightheaded.  I’m sooooo hungry.   Craving some grapes or a clementine really bad.  I begin think if I faint will they let me finish.  I start sucking on the GU without water.   I completed mile twelve at 15:58min/mile


MILE 13.1  The last .6 miles was so hard.  I’m not really tired just so hungry and cant make my legs go faster.  I walk and jog off and on.  When I get to the bridge, I try to push a lil harder though.  But still even though I don’t want to, I find myself lightheaded and walking. When I see the finish line, I get a lil more gush of power and sprint.  I find myself slowing as I get to the arch.  A second after I step over the finish mat, I hear my phone say I have a text.  When I finish, I’m so disoriented and light headed.  Emotion floods me.  I’m fiddling; trying to get my senses together, trying to shut off my garmin, music, mapmyrun and my HIGDON app.  People are saying things to me and one gives me my medal.  About time.  I finally get my app turned off.  It says the last 1.1 miles (+ the disoriented time) was 16:15

I look at my text and find out that was a notification that Dale had crossed the 13.1 mile with me.  That made me smile.


I tried to stand to get a photo with my medal but for some reason the guy took another person then me right next to him so I decided to try to find some water and something to eat.


I did it!!  I finished my ½ marathon.  Lots of weeks of training, lots of months waiting, lots of years wondering if it would ever be possible.. but its in the record books.  I did it!

Once A Runner by John L Parker, Jr

Are you a runner?  I thought I was at least in a quest to become one.  My husband and I decided to start training months ago, set some running goals and complete several running events including at least (4) ½ marathons this year.


I went on a mission to find some books to read this year about running. Once a Runner by John L Parker, Jr was repeatedly recommended.  I thought it would be a great way to start my year.


It took a few chapters to get into the book but Cassidy will steal your heart.  My favorite things about this book are some of the “Ah-ha” moments I had and the insightful or shocking things the author says.


The one that stands out the most is

“When they occasionally blew by a huffing fatty or an aging road runner, they automatically toned down the banter to avoid over whelming, to preclude the appearance of showboating (not that they slowed in the slightest). “

This one kind of hit me in the gut.  There was so much in this one sentence that struck me.  I’m a huffing fatty.  I didn’t know that I had a name to “real runners”.  So that probably means I’m on the outs and not a real runner. I always feel subconscious when I run by another runner.  But now I have a feeling that I’m gonna have a complex.  It didn’t help that he went on to note we are, “distant cousins of the spirit.”


Now there were some encouraging moments,

“You don’t become a champion by winning a morning workout.  The only true way is to marshal the ferocity of your ambition over the course of many days, weeks, months and (if you could finally come to accept it) years.”

Yes, I could say this is encouraging with a sarcastic tone but what is said here is the truth.  It’s the dedication of the continue work; not a moment 5k but the entire daily log.  This is something I’ll need to remind myself.


“We must have a plan even if it is wrong.”  I do plan and plan and plan.  I’m a list person.  I don’t think I have a problem with having the plan.  Although I’m sure that is some people error.  I need to stop over thinking.  Stop over analyzing.  Make the plan, stick with the plan, and complete the plan.  Don’t keep altering the plan or its no longer the plan and will get too complicated.


Another great advice and one that I wish that I could actually implement, “Better to get it all over with and then be able to enjoy the day like any other citizen.”  Again, I wish I was a morning person.  Maybe in my process this will come.  Maybe.


Chapter 17 on Breaking Down was very thought provoking to me.  I don’t want to give away too much of the book here but I enjoyed reading the different takes on it.  I hadn’t realized that I just come out of breaking down or that there was such a thing so after reading this chapter it was eye opening.  It also made me wish even more that I had been a runner a high school where I could have had a coach to teach me things.  Chapter 17 really makes a person think about, “What is my why?”  “Why do I run?”


The perspective that the author gives Denton on conditioning was extremely interesting.

“People conceptualize condition in different ways,” he said.  “Some think it’s a ladder straight up.  Others see plateaus, blockages, ceilings.  I see it as a geometric spiraling upward, with each spin of the circle taking you a different distance upward.  Some spins may even take you downward, just gathering momentum for the next upswing.  Sometimes you will work your fanny off and see very little gain; other times you will amaze yourself and not really know why.”

I always think of it as a ladder with plateaus.  Plateaus can be short or long.  The ladder is never ending.  But the thought of spins had never occurred to me.  I like the thought of gaining momentum not being blocked from the next rung.  I normally would say, its just a mind thing. However after the Midnight Madness run; I know that this game is a mind thing.  The mind is a powerful tool that can be used in both directions.


This book had me full of different emotions.  I laughed and cried.  It made me think of why I run…  but AM I a runner?  The book says you know you’re a runner when you don’t want to run but you do it any way.  I think I’m on a quest that I’m getting better at every day.  Are you a runner?