The absolute worst food day ever

Let me put it this way – you wouldn’t ask a recovering drug addict to sort your medicine cabinet, or put an alcoholic in charge of buying the beer… But NOBODY has any issues with asking the food-a-holic to clean out the fridge and buy the groceries…  This day did not go well for my diet – I cheated with skittles two nights ago, I had ice cream last night, and today was a disaster… So… I QUIT… AGAIN.

ARRRGGGHHHHH!!!! I know that I can’t quit but I am a food-a-holic and today I put myself in an impossible situation. I was good all last week eating pre-made meals from a frozen dinner diet plan that Stephanie was on a month or so ago. She quit when she got pregnant and so we had a week and a half of meals just frozen in the fridge. So… all the left over food from Thanksgiving that I would have eaten last week went bad.

Tomorrow is trash pickup, so today I cleaned out all the bad food… which put me in the bad situation – No, I didn’t eat 13 day old turkey – but since Stephanie is pregnant, she can’t eat most of the food that we normally eat and there were a lot things that will go bad in the next week because no one is eating them…

I’m sure you can see where this is going… I cheated today in spades. I didn’t keep a journal, I didn’t count calories, I just didn’t care. Today was a dark day.  (this is the part where you are supportive, but without condoning my actions).

Searching for weightloss

So I was searching online for weightloss support groups, interest groups and anything else I could join to help me lose weight.  I even stopped by Facebook.  There is so much out there that its difficult to find relevant information.

I even found blog sites from people claiming to have lost a lot of weight using particular products – but the thing is – they aren’t real people and the blogs are just advertisments!  Unbelievable.

So, how do I find actually helpful articles and online groups that aren’t an advertising hotbed?  I’m not sure its possible – even my blog – this blog – has ads related to weightloss products.

Don’t get me wrong – I’m sure some of these products are good and well worth it, but its difficult to dig through the hype and find the real information.  And if Opera put it on her show… forget it – all ads everywhere!  That woman creates wealth without even trying.  As soon as she mentions it, companies that have nothing to do with her are created and begin selling a product she talked about… and making money doing it.

Back to the subject at hand – how do I find relevant weightloss data and support online… I’m going to do some research and bring it altogether right here on I Quit… Again.  Subscript to my RSS feed if you want to be in the loop as I find relevant helpful online resources!

How to recover from a bad food choice

Yesterday I made a bad food choice.  I ate an entire bag of candy while at a movie.  Now, I could get discouraged and quit… again.  OR I could keep going on the diet.  But how do I make sure it won’t happen again?  The truth is, I don’t know – but here is how I plan to handle it today: document, understand, learn, then move on.

Document:

Yesterday I knew I shouldn’t eat the entire bag, or any of the candy for that matter, but I justified it by counting the calories and skipping dinner – that was the wrong choice and skipping dinner didn’t fix the bad choice, it compounded it.  Now my calorie count for the day might be ok, but I didn’t get the protein I needed and my sugars are way over.  After I finished my transgression, I felt guilt for doing it.  A few hours later I wished I had made a different choice altogether.  I know what I did was wrong and now so do you.

Understand:

This wasn’t a random accident; this didn’t happen to me, this was done by me.  I had a pastor once that said people don’t fall into sin, they “dig the swimming pool with a spoon, fill it using a thimble, build the diving board out of toothpicks and jump in”.  I planned to get skittles when I headed to the movie.  I skipped dinner knowing I would need the calories and could use that as justification.  I am guilty as charged.  I went to the movies and for me the movies are a place to eat skittles (for you it might be popcorn, but not me).

Learn:

What have I learned?  For starters, I learned that as with almost any transgression, it was fun for a season… but in the end destruction.  I truly regret the decision.  I also learned that I need to break the association of food with activities.  In this case, movies and candy.  I plan to avoid going to the movies unless my food accountability partner is with me and agrees to help me resist.

Move On:

Now I move on.  This is the part of the diet plan where I normally quit.  I mess up, then mess up again, then say things like “I’m just taking a break for a day or two”.  I quit alot.  That’s hard to admit because I don’t think of myself as a quiter – but when it comes to losing weight, I’m a quiter.  But not this time.  I am going to move on.  Tomorrow the skittles are behind me, but my gut is still right there infront of me, as it always will be if I quit again.