I know a couple that had weight loss surgery and between the two of them lost over 300lbs. That sounds like a great success story when you first hear it. But when you learn that she still weighs 280+ lbs and he is still over 330lbs, its difficult to find a happy ending here. The truth is you just realize how terrible their starting line must have been.

I know another guy that lost over a 100lbs while preparing for weight loss surgery. Because he lost so much weight on his own, he ended up not having the surgery. Again this sounds like a success and in many ways it is. I saw that guy last week and he is still over 300lbs. I can’t be excited for results like that.

I’ve lost over 80lbs from my heaviest at 330lbs. I’ve lost 59lbs since I started this blog a few years ago. I’ve lost 39lbs since Jan 1st this year. Its sounds very much like success.

But at 249lbs and holding, its feels like failure. I don’t know if I’ve quit or given up or just plateaued. I fear its some fatal combination of all three.

Stephanie suggested I take a week off all programs and “reset”. The idea appeals to me while scaring the crap out of me at the same time. My big fear here is the almost-success-story like the ones above. Its not good enough but what is?