I Quit… Again!

A group of four year olds were each put in a room alone with a single marshmallow with the instructions to not eat the marshmallow.  They were told if they succeeded in not eating the marshmallow after 15 mins, they would be given 2 marshmallows.  Some of the children were able to refuse the marshmallow in front of them for the promise of two later and some were not.  I’m in the latter category.

The study was a long term one attempting to see what the outcome would be for those children that were able to deny themselves for now in order to get what they wanted more in the long run.  A much larger scope than food – but I’m certain for me the two go hand in hand.  I’m an overeater and I would have eaten the marshmallow before the instructor left the room.  Maybe that is where I should start my weight loss journey over – self-denial everyday until it becomes a part of my culture.  Just a thought…

http://www.ted.com/talks/joachim_de_posada_says_don_t_eat_the_marshmallow_yet.html

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So the question is – if I started to create video content – would you watch?  Personally – it was a lot of work to get you guys (those of you left) to even check out or read my blog – BUT I’m soon to have the HTC Evo phone with a 4.3 inch screen, an 8 meg camera, and the easy of uploading videos through qik or youtube right from the phone.

So – if I uploaded vlog entries – would you bother watching?  I’m not sure that I can maintain any level of content worth watching.  I am a conversationalist.  I enjoy sharing my life through short stories and entertaining those around me.  But, would it be easier for me to create a video blog entry than it is to create a short post?  Maybe.

I have thought about sharing my weight loss struggle in a video journaling fashion, but is that TOO personal?  When I write, I often labor over the right words, the best phrasing, the exact description.  I’ve even changed the wording of a post based solely on my inability to spell a word close enough for spell checker to even understand what I was trying to say.  A video removes all of that dynamic.

Well – I’m sure I will still attempt some level of word smithing.  The worst part of vlog entries is that unlike conversations, I have the ability to rewind and try again.  Seriously – this is a bad thing because it causes me to spend a lot of time scripting my post – something I never do in casual conversation.  And I think a good blog entry looks like a casual conversation.

Anyway – my question is – if I film it, will you watch it?

Wouldn’t that be great?  Something new on the horizon?  I know I would love to have some new momentum, new direction, new inspiration for losing weight.  But I don’t.  Currently I only have the same dream of 36 inch pants and medium sized shirts that I have had for the last several years.

I don’t even know that I’m closer to understanding the reason for my weight issues (emotional, genetics, thyroid gland, just plain lazy, etc).  I’m active – I work out although its not consistent.  I’ve cycled, ran, walked, even recently started a martial arts class.  I think I know the best way for me to lose weight will involve dieting (or more specifically, changing my diet).  I can work out for an hour and burn 500 – 1000 calories but in as little as 5 minutes I can consume twice that.

Anyway – there is no new ‘umph’, no new push, no new direction.  Not even the frustration is new!  I would say that I want to lose weight like I want to play the piano; Enough to dream of how great it would be, but not enough to actually put in the time and effort required to accomplish the dream… At least I can console myself with mp3′s of great piano solos and think that could be me!