The bad news is I had a really bad food night.
The good news is I realized it and it wasn’t as bad as it could have been.
The morning and afternoon was fine but late afternoon I received some bad news. Not like anybody died news, but still upsetting.
In the book “I can make you thin” the author presents a hunger scale. It is as follows:
- Physically faint
- Fairly hungry
- Slightly hungry
- Pleasantly satisfied
The idea is to eat when you are a 3 or 4 and not eat past an 8. This makes the overall goal to live in the 5-6 range.
After dinner I allowed myself to emotional eat. On previous days I used a calming technique that is shared in Mckenna’s book. Today, for some reason I didn’t use it. I didn’t even think of the method from the book.
Until halfway through my eating and then I used the calming method and stopped eating.
Tonight’s emotional eating was different. I felt my body being full. I knew my body didn’t need what I was eating, that this was pure emotional eating and I did it anyway. In the past I really believed I “needed” it.
This is a major success story for me. You may be thinking “How is emotional eating a success?”
You see fat people believe they are fat because they are physically hungrier than skinny people. We blame genetics and need. We insist that we are hungry and that skinny just don’t understand and they don’t.
Yet, I heard it and I felt it, that message from the body that I was full. I ignored but I heard it. Fat people don’t hear that or feel that until they are a 9 or 10 on the scale. Wither how we were raised or what we have done or a million other reasons we don’t hear it.
I heard it and if I start listening I really believe I can become one of those skinny people who don’t understand. That’s success!
This “success” is also a part of the program. The book even states I may have times I get away from the ideal I have now chosen for myself. I did fail my new chosen relationship with food tonight but I still won.
I will learn from it and stay with program. I plan to re-read the book and reinforce the calming and craving techniques because when I needed them I didn’t even think to use them.
As I write this post I am a strong 9 on the hunger scale and I upset with myself. Yet, I am high on believing that my body is in love with me, enough to talk to me.