It doesn’t take a math wiz to notice that big red 20 in the right sidebar hasn’t changed in weeks – My weight Saturday was 288lbs – AGAIN. Some might say, “but hey, at least you aren’t GAINING the weight back that you have lost so far”.
Well… I’m trending in the wrong direction. All week I was around 290lbs but after a good Friday night and a Saturday morning bike ride, I was down to 288lbs. If I don’t change the direction I’m trending, you guys will see my weight go up and the big red 20 go down…
I haven’t quit! Ok, I guess that is arguable. I did start a new workout routine last week that I hope will stick, but my diet has been atrocious. Late night snacking has been BAD and my sweet tooth has brought an army. I find myself finishing the last bite of some ridiculous sugar snack after 10pm or even 11pm thinking “Why did I go get this again?”
To be honest, were it not for this blog – I would have completely quit already. But I don’t want to fail again. I don’t want to quit again. When I started this blog, I had this romantic idea that my weight loss chart would look like the Dow Jones has since November – consistent rapid downward plunge. That just hasn’t been the case.
How do I get out of this funk? What am I going to do different this week? How can I stop the late night snacking? Why do I keep falling into this same ditch? Will I ever know what it feels like to NOT be fat?