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I just want to feel safe in my own skin

I’m sitting here listening to dido’s Honestly OK thinking about the lyric “I just want to feel safe in my own skin”.  I feel betrayed by my body.

I read a blog today titled “Today I looked in the mirror“.  It hit home regarding not being able to see the fat me in the mirror that is obvious when I look at a photo of the same. Why is that? Why do my eyes lie to me?

And its not just my eyes that betray me!  Why do I desire to eat junk even when I’m not hungry? My stomach lies to me well and with ease!

When I run my legs scream that they can’t take any more, but I think they are also in on the conspirecy. Is there any part of my body I can trust?

My mind says I can loose the weight when ever I want before the binge but directly after says I will always be this way.

I can’t trust me!

Romans 7:15 NLT

I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.

I just want to feel safe in my own skin…

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