I’m sitting here listening to dido’s Honestly OK thinking about the lyric “I just want to feel safe in my own skin”. I feel betrayed by my body.
I read a blog today titled “Today I looked in the mirror“. It hit home regarding not being able to see the fat me in the mirror that is obvious when I look at a photo of the same. Why is that? Why do my eyes lie to me?
And its not just my eyes that betray me! Why do I desire to eat junk even when I’m not hungry? My stomach lies to me well and with ease!
When I run my legs scream that they can’t take any more, but I think they are also in on the conspirecy. Is there any part of my body I can trust?
My mind says I can loose the weight when ever I want before the binge but directly after says I will always be this way.
I can’t trust me!
Romans 7:15 NLT
I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.
I just want to feel safe in my own skin…