I know I put the pressure on myself – but I simply cannot continue to put off blogging because I don’t have some AMAZING article to write about. So here is me being me!
I’m struggling with the diet this month – A LOT! I have all the right tools in place – Nike+ running system, My Brand New BodyBugg (armband seen on biggest loser), my support system (you guys, my family, even my co-workers) – but this isn’t working! I have a blog post in draft mode right now called “Did your diet quit working or did you!” – I’ll answer that question right now – I did… arrgghhh!
I’m NOT discouraged – I’m mad! Mad at myself. Why do I continue to sabotage myself every time I get close to 285lbs??? My wife told me that one of the girls on the Biggest Loser last night was 301 and GAINED two pounds! HELLOOOO! Like the insurance commercials say on TV – “I’m so there!” — sidenote, Stephanie said she had immunity, so if I were her, I would have chugged a gallon or two of water before the weigh in to ensure a gain and a big loss NEXT week, maybe she did that? – back on point..
The challenge – A Month to LIVE – well – lets review – there were four challenges and four weeks – My goal was 4 for 4. So how am I doing?
- No water – mostly check… by mostly – I mean when I ate cookies at 10pm last night, I had milk…
- No TV – mostly check… I took the Superbowl off and my wife’s birthday b/c she wanted me to watch Biggest Loser and American Idol with her last Friday. I’m supposed to be reading INSTEAD of TV… more on that later
- Sleep 7-8 hours – well… I was doing great all last week. I’ve been getting 6 this week… arrgghh
- Exercise (500 cals a day) – well… We were sick half of last week (the whole family EXCEPT my wife).
For the No TV, read INSTEAD challenge – here is the thing, I come home around 5:30 most days – we eat dinner, clean up from dinner, go for our family walk (2.5 miles) and then come home and give the kids baths, get them ready for bed and bam! It’s already after 9! I’m supposed to be able to then sit down and read for an hour, write quality blogs, catch up on work I didn’t get done at the office but has to be done before 8am tomorrow and run my web design business WHILE STILL GETTING TO BED BY 11PM??? Whatever!
So the first thing that went was blogging – sorry guys, my posts have been a bit light lately. The second thing is the work catch up – my co-workers have noticed. Ok – then Reading went out the window too. I can’t neglect my web design business – I have clients that pay for my time and I have to find new clients all the time because we budget on that revenue stream.
I haven’t even brought up my church, my in town relatives, my friends – all of which are asking for more time. I have to find a way to be more productive in less time or I’m sunk. I know a lot of people say don’t do as much – but what you don’t know is the amount of things I already table on top of what I keep on my plate. I can’t quit my day job, don’t want to quit my night job, really don’t want to quit my blogging, won’t quit my church, can’t quit spending time with family – and although I haven’t spent anytime with my friends lately – I hate that they have been pushed off. And all the while, I need to learn how to eat right, live right.
With everything I have going on – I often tend to go into auto pilot for many activities that don’t require my concentration (like eating). I have got to change the speed and direction of my life!!! My lack of focus on healthy eating habits is killing me – literally. I’m NOT discouraged… I’M MAD!